Thursday, August 09, 2018

He is not dead but sleeping

Yesterday a kind Orthodox priest who used comment on this blog telephoned to check I was alright, in a very pastoral way I suppose to check I was still alive.

This post is to prove to anyone else who might be interested that I am indeed alive.

I hate priests who seek sympathy by discussing their health problems, ordinary people have to carry on regardless ....

...but since my heart problems I have been up and down, generally more down than up, my condition and drugs make me very sleepy and tiedd to my home, I have received the great grace of falling asleep during meetings. I am also more stupid than I used to be, I haven't been able to read a book for months, I can't concentrate.

I have had a tremour in my left hand for years but it has got worst and made celebrating Mass correctly more difficult and uncomfortable, I am always anxious about spilling the Precious Blood or shaking with the ciborium and cutting food is a bit difficult too. Because I'm a bit unstable on my feet I fell downstairs awhile ago and damaged my back, I no longer need to say Mass seated behind the altar, I hated that, but it has added to the discomfort, to the point where saying Mass hurts. Saying Mass facing East is a boon but nowadays the reason is not just the theological-historical, but that it stops people seeing me wince and fumble with the host, it's a vanity thing!

I am very grateful to my priest and lay friends, especially the Traditional and Orthodox ones for their support, and also to my bishop and brothers in the diocese who are tireless in their pastoral and spiritual care for their decrepit brother.

Keep me in your prayers, and pray God gives the grace to joyfully offer it up.

PS. I have just published some comments that have been hanging around for over 3 months - sorry

21 comments:

Romulus said...

My own pastor (for whom I've served Mass for years) is struggling with old age and infirmity, so I have a very good idea how your life is, Father. In his intercessions, he always adds, "please pray for the sick." I will remember you from now on, and do you please remember him.

Leo Flanagan said...

Always curious to check if you are still with us, Father, welcome back. God bless

Catechist Kev said...

Welcome back, Fr. Blake. :^)

You have been missed.

God bless you,
Kevin

cogito said...

You were missed. Now you are in my prayers. God bless good priests like you.

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Fr Ray Blake said...

Tancred, my email address is frrayblakeatgmail.com

Woody said...

God continue to bless you, Father Blake. His will be done. You have been and are in my daily rosary.

Paul Hellyer said...

Welcome back. We who have very little 'pasturing' appreciate you.

the4thSam said...

Well God bless you, Father. You are now on our family's prayer list. Peace be with you.

G. Thomas Fitzpatrick said...

Father, you have certainly been missed. I will continue to remember you in my prayers.

You are not alone in the CHF boat. I suffer from it as well, and last year needed a triple bypass. So your limitations are well understood by many.

God bless you!

Tancred said...

I have discovered your site appears to be partially blocked in iPhone Safari and completely blocked on desktop. I am, however, able to access it from Firefox!

Stay well, looking forward to more of your blogging.

Tamarind said...

Dear Father, I am very sad to hear about your continued health problems. I have been praying for you. I'd like you to know also that your blog was always a consolation to me when I read it, and that I am very grateful to you for your ministry.

Scribe said...

Welcome back, dear Father. You are often in my thoughts, and I was thrilled to find that you had returned to your blog. I wonder whether Fr Hunwicke knows? He's another great fan of yours.

Unknown said...

Dear Father, you have no idea how glad we are to hear from you, suffering or not!
A small word occasionally is a great ministry to many. We don't need great disquisitions. We remember all the big ones you have written. Anyway congratulations for still being alive and for not being run over by the tanks; please know that we hold you in our prayers.

John Vasc said...

Dear Father Ray,

I will keep you in my prayers.

Simple Simon said...

Fr.Ray, though your physical heart may be impoverished at the moment, the priest's heart that is yours has lost none of its God-given charism for plundering heavens riches on behalf of your people. Your priestly ministry is not on hold. Prayers and best wishes.

Anita Moore said...

Dear Fr. Blake, you have my prayers. Your sufferings surely reflect the sufferings of the whole Church at this time.

gemoftheocean said...

Bless you Father Blake. Have been keeping you in my prayers.

Lady Liberty said...

I will keep you in my prayers. I understand how reading a book can be make one sleepy with certain drugs. I hope that maybe audiobooks may help to keep the little grey cell stimulated.

Therese said...

God bless you, Father, and may the maternal presence of the Holy Virgin be your constant consolation.